I rose at 2:41 am- my first thought was that I needed to complete file reviews.
My second thought was- why can’t I sleep?
ergo – refer to thought a.
I miss the days when I used to think beautiful things when I woke up.
© 2026 – SoulSequel
17 responses to “What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?”
If our brains are biological computers, what that means is you just have to program it to be more positive, program it to action.
@Jear77 is being positive a good thing?
@Scarlett2 it helps a lot of diverse circumstances. Whether it’s a universal panacea remains to be seen.
It’s usually the same stuff every morning. Just things like “the taste in my mouth is horrendous” followed by a little “I wish I didn’t exist.” Lol, I’m not a morning person.
@yin hmmm- maybe you have allergies. Well,,,maybe you are a philosopher in the morning…
@Scarlett2 Well, I think it is because I am that empty in the mornings. I’m always tired. I am not connected to many emotions other than maybe some anger here and there. That wears off during the day. At night is where I start actually thinking most. I guess it is that kind of thing where I post things and constantly regret them when I wake up. It isn’t terrible things or anything. Just a “sharing too much” kind of thing or things that could make me seem so much weirder.
@yin this is intriguing! So you feel vulnerable? Do you feel this feeling somewhere like here in a digital world where no one knows for sure who you are, where you are, or much about you? Expound, please.
@Scarlett2 I’m having a bit of a hard time with comprehension at the moment, but I will try to explain more as best I can. I always feel a bit vulnerable. Like, I have had people send some rude messages online and they do nothing to me. I send them “lol” and sometimes say a little something can could be egging them on. I’m not that kind of vulnerable. Mine is when I make friends or get closer to someone. It is a fear of driving someone away or concerned they look at me different afterwards. I am pretty fine if a person decides to make the decision to move on, but I fear of being the core reason for the decision. I like to be as open as I can. I don’t hide some stuff others do (though I have my secrets of course), but it is kind of me looking from the outside in sometimes.
Like, if I saw someone sharing some things I do, I would think that maybe they said a little too much. I don’t feel that in the moment for what I send, but I do when I wake up the next morning. There was a post of Facebook recently on this charity guy’s page. He was asking if people had stories of teachers and whatnot being creeps at schools towards the kids. I shared something I thought was at least weird as hell. Next morning I deleted it. It had no likes or comments unlike most of the other replies. I then felt that maybe it didn’t quite fit, or maybe if it could be seen by the then-student I was talking about though never named. I didn’t have their permission. Not sure when I need it for a nameless story like that to people who would never know or guess, but it still worries me. I like sharing and being able to share, but I then run away from it when my mind basically resets itself in the morning.
I fear the potential questions or potential change in the relationship. I fear saying things that may haunt me later. I’m not ever going around saying, typing, or even thinking of dumb offensive stuff that would haunt me, but just being open about myself and my quirks and stuff. I guess there are a few layers to these feelings.
COFFEE
SHOWER
EVERYTHING ELSE
I questioned why the cats were not at my door ready for morning num-nums.
Then, I wondered how Immortal Pirate is feeling today. He went to bed sick last night.
He was up and had been up since the crack of dawn. He gave all the cats their num-nums. I needed coffee. I fixed us both oatmeal with banana slices.
@ladybarbara It sounds like a nice domestic life. I like a nice, calm domestic life.
I do not recall. I ended up taking two bottles of cough syrup… and have been focusing on my work as a ninja.
This is what I do everyday. Ninja work. Did you know ninjas are not actually respected in Japan? Maybe so… maybe not…. but, I am a Ninja by design.
Ninja’s ultimate goal is to be a sneaky assassin. The better assassin is one of spirit, not flesh, not material things.
I am a spiritual ninja and do spiritual ninja things.
I do material ninja things, too.
I am not a teacher, nor a master. I am the teacher and the master.
We all are.
We learn…
Karate. Kung Fu. K
K
Punch Kick Art
Tae Kwon Do
K
Ninjas are always awake, even when asleep. They are lucid dreamers.
@five2one do you fly in your lucid Dream?
@Scarlett2 I love flying…..
;-)
I see you know what I am talking about.
Gravity does not make sense to spirits or lucid dreamers…
@five2one
LUCID DREAMERS, LIKE US, ARE AWARE
TODAY WAS BASICALLY “SHIT, DONT FEEL LIKE GOING TO WORKOUT”
WENT ANYWAY.
…. gotta go potty!!!